A new beginning…
As of late I have been spending extensive periods of time on my computer doing research for my thesis-think dense volumes of philosophy that may or may not be written in my native tongue. On the best of days, I find myself engaged with ideas and thinking of exciting ways to apply the material to political theory. On the worst of days, I spend hours scanning books for something relevant, and hoping that a new wind of motivation will shake me into action. This aimless reading, leads to my worst fault-processing, or sometimes even worse meta-processing.
My mind skips from Aristotle’s Poetics, to “Why did I send that bitchy email to my ex? I think it was because I was feeling just secure enough with my insecurity to want to standoffish? But why did I feel that way? If I’m actually getting over my 4 month emotional shit storm, why do I still care? etc, etc” This train of thought swiftly flows into, “Why is no one else freaked out about all of the biopolitical techniques President Obama has proposed to maximize the country’s efficiency, which will lead to an almost unprecedented control over the American population.”
So, instead of keeping all of that stuffed inside my tuckered out brain, I hope to vacate my mind of all of the ridiculous things I think of all day, so that maybe I can actually start doing productive work.
